Want to see what I did this week?

I’ve always hesitated to call myself a [swimsuit] model or even allow others to be privy to that facet of me. And it wasn’t because I thought I sucked at it or was embarrassed. Nah, I feared being judged by it. A significant portion of my life has seen me battling misperceptions due to my looks. Being hated before I open my mouth. Being shrugged off because it isn’t possible to be more than a pretty face. Every accomplishment being attributed to my looks or, for the really hateful, having slept my way into it. Or the absolute worst: being told I’m smart…for a pretty girl.

I’m not complaining, just stating facts. The disbelief has made me a stronger person. It takes a certain amount of fortitude to endure being perceived as stupid/unevolved or bitchy before you even open your mouth. One is judged from the time you leave your house until you return in the evening. People cannot help it. The insecure need to belittle the confident. How could they look themselves in the mirror otherwise?

Still, dealing with such judgments everyday is tiring so though I have been modeling for the majority of my 20s, I was reserved about discussing it. I didn’t want to give people another reason to judge me. But you know? One gets judged regardless. Why let it stop your celebration? Their judgment is a reflection on them, not me. It’s impossible to prevent someone from misperceiving you, and it’s weakening to shrink yourself for another.

Anyway, it’s Friday (though my body is swearing it’s Monday), not trying to self-analyze. I hope you guys had a great week because I did. I ventured down South (lower than the Gulf) and did some work that I’m going to share with youse.

Have a great weekend!

12 Responses to “Want to see what I did this week?”

  1. Fabie says:

    You know what I love most about this video? The fact that you were smiling, laughing and having fun.
    Let me find out that mi Reina can drop it like its hot…and on those heels! *bowing to your greatness*. You look SUPER DUPER beautiful and sexy. CALIENTE! Dale!!!!

  2. and1grad says:

    Walk like a champion, rum papa pumpum… SHAAAOOOOOOO!! VERY nice mama.

    “One gets judged regardless. Why let it stop your celebration? Their judgment is a reflection on them, not me. It’s impossible to prevent someone from misperceiving you, and it’s weakening to shrink yourself for another.”

    LOVE this. In fact, I live by it. The looks basis is of course different me being CONSIDERABLY darker than you. But the reactions are somewhat similar in certain arenas.

  3. J says:

    “It’s impossible to prevent someone from misperceiving you, and it’s weakening to shrink yourself for another.”

    Exactly.

    If it makes you happy and the only thing damaged are people’s “notions” of you…then screw them and do it. And it looks like you did.

    It looks like you did it very well…

  4. Tunde says:

    looks like you had fun. nice moves. good job.

  5. Benny says:

    For those of you who have been lucky enough to have a conversation w/ this lovey lady, you already know it goes deeper than her good looks.

    that said, you look F’in amazing in these pics and video….but whats new, lol. aight, i’m done gassing for the day :-P next up, WEEEEEEEKEEEEEEND!!!!!

  6. Bahama says:

    Looks like you had fun!!! And I couldn’t agree with this post any more than I do. You are so right …** logs off dancing to Buju**

  7. madphaedra says:

    ‘Sup Reina? Looks like you had fun. Well, you and the camera person. lol But er um, I didn’t know you did the “drop it like it’s hot move”! LOL G’won gurlie! Loves it, keep repping for us gorgeous smart girls!

  8. Mark Dub says:

    Yo…honestly, I’ve embraced the truth that you stated in this for years. You can’t control what people say, do, or how people perceive you; only how you react to it. Me? I can count on my fingers the number of people who’s opinions really matter to me. Outside of that select few, one can say whatever they feel (outside of my earshot). Mother made ‘em, mother had ‘em, mother f_ck ‘em (Buy a vowel). Sorry if I offended anyone w/the language. Great post!

  9. Mark Dub says:

    P. S. You’re kinda pretty….for a smart girl ;-)

  10. Spite1977 says:

    Guilty..I looked at you and had my preconceived notions about you, and you proved me so wrong
    its embarrassing to admit..you are a very accomplished woman and smart too for a model that is.. ;-)
    Wuuuuuuvvvv yoooouuuuuuu!!!!! Lmao .. ;-) very good blog as always…

  11. Oldsolpoet says:

    Two words…Simply Amazing. You truly looked like you were having a blast. Thanks for being the rare blend of beauty and brains. I tip my hat to you!

  12. Dammit! Mark Dub poopie face stole my comment (RE: being pretty for a smart girl!)!!!

    Sorry, Mark, but I thought I was gonna be all clever and then BOOM- you stole my thunder *pouty face*

    And you, missy, better celebrate ALLLLLLLLLLL your gorgeousness & hard work and send the haters over here to me if they get out of line. El Generalissimo won’t have it!! It looks like you had a great time and that’s awesome!

    PS- who’s that Champion song by again?? I always forget but I need it on my ipod and in my life!

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